Here is Max playing on his activity mat and just discovering his voice....I was almost crying it was so funny! Thanks Auntie Jill for the adorable outfit!!!
Could it be that some of you are not acquainted with the story of Rudolph? Well pull up an ice block and lend an ear.
31 October 2007
My Little Pumpkin!
Here is a closeup of him...check out those baby blues!!! Too gorgeous!!
30 October 2007
Wedded Bliss...
Karl headed over to Dave's room (that is the groom) while I got to leisurely get ready, primping to the max!! The wedding started at 3:30 pm and I headed down a few minutes early to get a good seat...we were able to get a pic of the two of us before the ceremony began....it's kind of hard to see my face because of some shadows but you get the point!
I am throwing this pic in just because I thought it looked so cool!
26 October 2007
Pretty, Pretty, Pretty...
Wednesday night I slept horrible. Thoughts of Max screaming all the way to Mom-Mom's house kept me awake for most of the night ~ even though she called and said that he did great...a mom's job is to worry right?? It seemed that Wednesday was to be my day of worry because I also had my Dr's visit and to put it lightly I was a bundle of nerves. BUT as day turned into evening it got much better.
I had the pleasure of going out to dinner with a wonderful gal that Karl works with. Shannon(who recently got engaged ~ please send her your congrats!!) and we had a great time out just as girls. We went to a fun restaurant called Texas Roadhouse. They play lots of country music and serve fantastic steaks. We each had a yummy margarita and both got steak for dinner ~ we were in the mood for blood!! When you write that out it sounds kind of morbid...he he he! But all in all it was a lot of fun and I thank Shannon for letting me gab. Even though I am sure most of my sentences came out as scrambled as they are in my head...but I also thank her for just having some girl time which I miss a lot from my gals back at home! Shout outs to Tree, Jilly, Ne'Ne, Ronda, and of course my Mellie Roses!
This morning I got up at 9:30 am (OMG, that's what sleep feels like!). Had about 50 cups of coffee (YUMO!), and decided to paint my nails and toes (for our upcoming wedding). Not that you all want to see my toes but it may be a while before I get to paint them again all pretty like so I guess this shot is more for me than you... :)
I am also including a self-portrait of myself in my bathrobe smiling, I am going to print this pic out and paste it to our fridge so I can remind myself every day what I look like smiling. It seems like it's been a long time since I smiled so bear with me and my morning look!! LOL!
25 October 2007
On the Road...
I had my doctor's appointment today and all went well. Karl, a.k.a Husband of the Year went with me and was extremely supportive. I told the doctor how I have been feeling and she was very glad that I came in. I informed her the my "HOTY" pushed me into it, she told him thank you.
She told me what I am feeling is very common and said that I am not alone....she was incredibly helpful and I do feel better now that I have talked to someone, besides myself of course ~ which happens quite a lot these days. Don't tell anyone...I don't want anyone to think that I have completely lost my mind...LOL!
Anyway my doctor told me about a great support group that I am going to set up an appointment with and a few other things that we are going to try and hopefully in no time I will be back to my old crazy, loud, laughing self.
I would like to say a special thank you to a few people who are helping me through this.
First off my husband. Without you I really don't know where I would be. You are my rock, my life, my soul, my everything. Words could never express how thankful I am every day that I get to wake up to you and spend my life with you.
Second my Mother's, yes that is plural. My Mom and my newly inherited Mom, or what some would call a Mother in Law. I want to thank you beautiful ladies for helping me. Mom-Mom (what Max calls here) in the physical sense of taking Max for a night here and there and allowing me to get some sleep and Nana (what Max calls her) for being my long distance life-line. I always feel better after I get off the phone with you. I know that you are missing Max and I but you are always here in spirit!
Third my friend Melanie. We have been friends for so long and now that we are older she just gets better and better. I can't imagine my life without you and I thank you for being there for me!
24 October 2007
PPD....Postpartum Depression
With that being said I have had a rough month. I have been fighting it because I just refused to believe that there might be a problem (ok so maybe Max got some of his stubbornness from me as well). Just in the last week or so I finally got up the courage to talk to Karl about how I have been feeling, it was scary but I am glad that I did it. It's amazing how crazy your body & mind can feel after you have a baby. After crying for two or three days I realized that I should do some research on PPD and this is just the tip of the iceberg.
The signs of postpartum depression include:
~Feeling restless or irritable.
~Feeling sad, depressed or crying a lot.
~Having no energy.
~Having headaches, chest pains, heart palpitations (the heart being fast and feeling like it is skipping beats), numbness, or hyperventilation (fast and shallow breathing).
~Not being able to sleep or being very tired, or both.
~Not being able to eat and weight loss.
~Overeating and weight gain.
~Trouble focusing, remembering, or making decisions.
~Being overly worried about the baby.
~Not having any interest in the baby.
~Feeling worthless and guilty.
~Being afraid of hurting the baby or yourself.
~No interest or pleasure in activities, including sex.
I am not saying that I have had every single one of these symptoms but I have had the majority of them. It's VERY SCARY for me to put this out there for everyone to know, I don't like to admit that I can't handle things on my own and for anyone that knows me really well you know that is a true statement. I read that one of the ways to get over PPD is to talk about it and having a good support group. I know that I have a great group of people out there that love me and I am counting on each and every one of you to help me through this. LOL! Even if 80% of you are 900 miles away. LOL!
I also have another blessing in that Karl's parents live only a few hours away and Mom-Mom (my mother in law) is coming down to take Max for a few nights so I can catch up on some much needed rest. We were heading up to their house Friday anyway because of a wedding that Karl is in but I have to say I am pretty thrilled about getting to sleep in for 2 nights in a row!
If anyone is interested in reading up on PPD here is a link to an interesting article that I found.
http://www.medicinenet.com/postpartum_depression/article.htm
I will be sure to keep you all up to date on what the doctor says after tomorrow's visit. : ) Wish me luck!!!
Some new pics...
We were doing some tummy time and he got angry with me so I rolled him back over and believe it or not he flipped me off...what a kid!! LOL!
Here is a cute one of him doing some more tummy time...check out the drool...that was not there when I took the pic. I was cracking up once I saw it because it happened in a split second....hilarious!
22 October 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS MAGOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
21 October 2007
Anguish....
2 entries found.
anguish[1,noun]anguish[2,verb]
Main Entry:
1an·guish
Pronunciation:
\ˈaŋ-gwish\
Function:
noun
Etymology:
Middle English angwisshe, from Anglo-French anguisse, angoisse, from Latin angustiae, plural, straits, distress, from angustus narrow; akin to Old English enge narrow — more at anger
Date:
13th century
: extreme pain, distress, or anxiety
synonyms see sorrow
20 October 2007
A Long, Long Night....
But now that he is getting bigger he is growing out of his "life-saving" Kiddipotamus Swaddler we decided that it was time that we try and break him of this habit....and let me all remind you that he has the stubbornness trait of his daddy. It was a long, long night.
About 9:30 'ish or so we gave him a bath and then by 10 pm he got his bottle...that took about 20 minutes or so to finish and then "THE BATTLE OF MAX" began. After he finished his bottle he was almost instantly asleep. So while he was nice and drowsy I put him down in his crib, told him good night and I loved him, I held my breath and fingers as I walked back to our bedroom. Karl and I took 2 turns each going in every 4-5 minutes and trying to soothe him. He does have a pacifier but he doesn't really keep it in his mouth all that great once he starts to fall asleep. At approximately 11:45 am he was FINALLY asleep. I think that was the longest 2 hours of my life and to know that I have probably have about 3 more days of this makes me want to break down in tears right here and now.
BUT I have decided that this is going to be easier to do now then in another 2 months. Wish us luck and if you don't hear from me in the next day or so please say a prayer because I will probably be sitting in the bathroom ripping out my already thin hair (another great thing that pregnancy leaves behind....or should I say falls out after!).
19 October 2007
A talkin' fool...
Here is a cute video of Max. This was the 1st time he played on the mat...the quality is not super great because I kept moving too much but it's still pretty cute!
Miss Magoo
Here is a quick little video of our crazy dog Magoo....she does what we call "The Puppy Bow" when she wants to play. You can see her do it a couple of times during the video...to cute!
18 October 2007
A Few Things...
Second was an overwhelming feeling of love for my friends and family and especially for my son Max. As we were doing prayers and sending Kristina up to the Lord I looked down at Max (trying to get him to sleep), and he looked up at me with his amazing blue eyes and smiled - it was such a beautiful thing, it truly brought tears to me eyes. It was a very special moment, almost surreal. Being a mother has brought on a number of changes in me, physically being the most obvious, but the internal changes are what is most drastic.
I realized that this child of mine is the most important thing in my life. I love my family and I love my friends and I LOVE my husband to death but Max is my flesh and bones and I would give anything to keep him safe. I feel deeply for the Kristina's mother, I cannot imagine what it must be like to lose your child. I pray for Kristina, for her family & friends, and especially for her son and hope that they can turn to God in their time of need.
To all of my friends and family; I love you with all of my heart. I know that I am far away and I don't do a great job of telling all of you how much I care but please know that you mean the world to me. I love you!
17 October 2007
Lightning, a.k.a FANTASTIC READ!
If anyone is looking for a good book this is a keeper!! I will let you all know when I have finished!! Stay tuned!!
15 October 2007
Mel and Dave....
Anyhue, they got in around 4pm Friday and we just kind of hung out, ordered some Chinese and played a fun card game. It's called Sevens, super easy and lots of fun. I am not a great card player but this was a game that I could play and have fun at. We got up Saturday, putzed around for a little while and then headed in to town for breakfast. After that we went to what I thought was going to be a ton of fun, Pumpkin Show here in Millville. Don't let the website fool you. It was not all that it was cracked up to be! We whizzed through it in about 30 minutes or less. Oh well - at least we got to hang out together.
That night we had homemade Manicotti (yes made my little ole me), and played another rousing hand of Sevens. Sadly Mel and Dave had to leave Sunday morning to head down to Gettysburg and finish the rest of their trip. But I was sooo happy that they made a little pit stop to visit us here in little ole Millville! Hope to see you guys at Thanksgiving!
The Unexpected Mrs. Pollifax....
It's a pretty easy read and at only 190 pages I think a fairly fast read. I am only about 20 pages in but so far I am enjoying it. I am hoping to finish it fairly soon because I have two other books that I want to get started with - Lightning by Dean Koontz and Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. I am a little nervous about the Dean Koontz book just because I know that he is similar to Stephen King and I have quite the imagination! The last thing that I need is to be reading some freaky book and then sit home by myself all day and worry!! We shall see how it goes! Happy Reading!
12 October 2007
Question for the Masses..
Max is smiling all the time and I haven't noticed any dimples on him - yet! My question is this...are babies born with dimples immediately or do they take time to develop? Are they hereditary or do they just appear on their own?? Anybody, anybody??
On another note our lovely little lab is snoring so loud next to me I think that I just saw a bit of paint peeling off the wall and flying toward her flaring nostrils!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What's For Dinner...
It's called Korean Beef and we had it this past weekend at Max's Baptism party....it was as Rachel Ray says "yumo!". Here is all you need to know to make your own!
Ingredients:
Round Steak (or you can use any type that you prefer...)
1/3 cup Soy Sauce
1/3 cup Sesame Oil
1/4 cup Sugar
2 Tbsp Dry White Wine
1/4 Tsp pepper ( I would probably use more than this because I LOVE PEPPER!)
2 Cloves of Garlic (I again would probably use more than this because I LOVE GARLIC!)
1 Thinly sliced bunch of Scallions
Mix together and marinade for as long as possible, preferably 24 to 36 hours. Cook steak on the grill to your preference and slice thinly for presentation.
You can also take the remaining marinade and boil it for 20 minutes and then pour over the steak once it's done and you are ready to serve. ENJOY!
10 October 2007
Miss Mellie Roses...
I am so blessed to have wonderful friends and I am so excited because one of my nearest and dearest is coming to visit this weekend! Melanie and I have been friends since our freshman year in high school - which seems to me now a very long time ago. We met I believe at lunch time, a very scary time because it was our freshman year (scary enough on it's own) and we were trying to not look to un-cool finding somewhere to sit. High School is hell! First off you enter it feeling like a fish out of water, here you just came from middle school where you knew your place, knew what to do and what not, you basically ruled the school as an 8th grader and then you get thrown to the sharks of "HIGH SCHOOL". DUH DUH DUH!
Anyhue I digress.
Mel and I were standing near the same table and kind of did a once over on each other and thought "hey she looks pretty cool" and the rest is history. We basically survived high school holding on to each other. I helped Mel get through Michigan History (this girl didn't do a single scrap of homework for that class!) and she basically just helped me survive. To put in layman's terms my step-father at the time (he is no longer, thank the lord!) was Beelzebub in disguise and Melanie was like Micheal the Angel... :)
We have been friends for so long now I can't remember a time that she was not a part of my life. And I am so excited because she is coming to visit this weekend with her wonderful hubbie!!!!!! We talk often on the phone, usually with her making the call because as you all know I suck with phone, but seeing her in person is going to be soooo much more special!! I am counting down the days Miss Mellie Roses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's amazing that we have known each other for 14 years and I only have a smattering of pics of us together...but here is a good one of her from my baby shower.
I can't wait to see your smiling beautiful face in person!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! See you Friday!!
09 October 2007
Max's Baptism
05 October 2007
Here We Come NYC!
Anyhue...have to get back to packing. It's amazing how many things you have to get together with the arrival of a baby!! LOL! I will be sure to post some pics of Max once we get home from our fun filled weekend!! Ciao!
03 October 2007
Baby vs. Puppy
I would like to know who the idiot was that said "if you want to know what's it's like to have a baby get a dog", that person is a complete moron. There is NOOOOO comparison.
First off when you teach a dog something they usually remember it and continue doing it, a dog doesn't need 5 million diaper changes, they don't cry until endless hours of the night, they only eat maybe once or twice a day....someone tell me what baby does that???
I am sure that you are all wondering why I am talking about this....well Mr. Max had one heck of a night last night. Not sure what his deal was but apparently sleeping was not in the cards. He was awake for most of the day yesterday, a few catnaps here and there, so I was thinking ooooh he is going to sleep good tonight....WRONG! He slept from 10 pm till about 1:30 am....fell back asleep till about 2:40 am or so....and proceeded like that every hour on and off till about 4 am when I finally fed him.
When you become a parent you always say that you are going to do what's best for the baby, you aren't going to let them sleep with you, you aren't going to let them get used to a pacifier, blah, blah, blah. Let me tell you at 4:45 am this morning and Mr. Max was still not asleep I threw all that crap out the window and put him in his swing, (which seems to be the ONLY place that he will sleep good), and he slept until 9 am this morning! GO figure!
On a side note, Miss Magoo slept all night long AND then also slept some more when Max FINALLY fell asleep! LOL!
Well I feel better now...just had to get that off my chest...ok onto my 3rd cup of coffee!!! HA HA !
02 October 2007
What to do, What to do....
What I have found that in order for me to do stuff that I actually like; book clubs, wine tasting, cooking classes, etc., I have to travel north, anywhere from 45 minutes to an hour and 1/2. That my friends is not too cool. BUT in my hours of researching what people do around here I found a pretty cool website for any wine connoisseurs...Mikey you might enjoy this one! It is called localwineevents.com, and you can just select your state and it gives you a run down of any upcoming events in your area. It's pretty cool...I actually found it through MeetUp.com. There was a local group that goes all over attending upcoming events...
I am hoping that it will be a lot of fun, I will keep you all posted! Ciao fellow Vino Lovers!
01 October 2007
Beautiful Mess
Pregnancy is one of the most extreme times in a woman's life: extreme emotions, extreme moods, extreme appetite. I remember being so tired, but also incredibly ambitious. I was nervous about the baby's health, doctor's visits, needles, and weight gain, yet I understood real hope for the first time in my life. And in the midst of pregnancy, when I became heavier than ever before, I somehow felt more beautiful than any previous time in my life. This body, which society says must be thin to be fashionable and is for display purposes only, now had a real purpose.
There are so many joys along the road to becoming a new mother - the least of which is the many people who love to tell you every little negative thing that happened to them during pregnancy, childbirth, and those blessed first months with a new baby. You announce your due date and everyone says, "Congratulations," right before they jump into their own story of their fifty-hour un-medicated labor, followed by thirteen weeks of straight colic, teenage angst, and how they cannot get their grown children to leave home.
I LOVE the special people in my life who tell me, "you're as big as a house" or "enjoy sleep while you can." They show the emotional sympathy of a hungry pit bull.
But I want you to know that no matter the pains or discomforts or fears, there will be no time in your life as sweet. Nothing will bring such a beautiful smile or fonder memories than when you think back to preparing for your baby. If the road to becoming a mom were not as difficult as it is joy-filled, then we would take it for granted. It is the aches and pains and little quirky weird things that happen along the way that make our stories unique, that tie us to our children with such fierceness. We know what it cost to get them here. The rough edges of pregnancy are smoothed out by intense love and joy. For example: there is nothing like the first kicks of your baby in the womb. Of course, if you've made it to the seventh month or beyond you will occasionally wish junior wasn't so aggressive. My first child wedged his feet into my ribs so hard I was sure he was trying to break out early. Because of this, I often said that I would be so much happier with a baby in my arms rather than karate-chipping my insides. The things that were hard to endure in the long minutes of every day become the things yo miss as time moves on. Two months after my son was born, I became a liar. I missed his little kicks terribly. I missed his flip-flopping in the night. I had to have another one so I could feel it again.
No matter how many absolutely adorable pictures you get a Sears or Penney's, they will never bring the feeling those first ultrasound pictures bring. There is such an intense rush in knowing that there really is a baby growing inside you, and it's your son or daughter! You can actually see them suck their thumbs or tickle their own toes. For me it was proof; it seemed to take the abstract and bring it all home. This confirms your motherhood: you must now wear jeans that rise above the belly button (just kidding).
Here's the best part: all the leg shaving, makeup wearing, bikini waxing, eyebrow plucking, high-heel walking, and hair fixing you've ever done or had to learn how to do; all the rude stares, catcalls, impolite gestures, and unequal treatment; anything and everything that makes being a woman hard, inconvenient and tiresome - even pregnancy and labor - comes crashing down when you, at your weakest, become the strongest you've ever been and push your child into this world, and you finally embrace the beautiful, messy joy that is your newborn.
As I stared at my son's quivering lips while he cried the first minutes after he was born, I was so proud. I was proud to be a woman, and no amount of pain or fear or stereotype placed upon me by society would ever change that again. I alone was equipped to care for and give birth to this boy. My body nurtured him for nine months and wold keep fat on his thighs for a year more through breast-feeding.
It is an empowering feeling. We are told that there are so many things we can do, and then we realize we are capable of the seemingly impossible. We triumph in the face of unspeakable difficulties!
And what they say is true! We forget the hardest parts of pregnancy, at least enough to go through it again. But God made pregnancy hard for a reason - nobody but a tired, pregnancy woman could actually look forward to labor.
- Heather Best
I sat in my bed last night, exhausted from a day of little sleep, little food, and many diaper changes and read this. I realized that I would not want to be anywhere else!
A Cool Cat?
Miss Magoo also likes to hang out with Max and I while he is being fed. I don't have the heart to tell her she doesn't really fit on the ottoman!